My Infertility Journey
I invite you to walk through this infertility journey with me. To see where I have gone and to hope and pray with me that this season will soon come to a joyful end. Or to mourn with me that my story doesn’t quite pan out as I would have hoped.
If you know me, or happened to bump into me on a hiking or biking trail, the chances are you would see a bubbly, passionate and very talkative lass. That isn’t a front. It’s who I am.
One thing I’ve learned about infertility is that it’s a lot like grief. You don’t forget about it, but that doesn’t stop you from enjoying life. It can hit you in waves and when it does it’s painful. When I’m out on the trails, watching a soccer game, at work or just doing life, I don’t forget that we don’t have children, but I still laugh and love and appreciate the beauty all around me. When I’m on an aeroplane or still in bed at 9am I’m also pretty grateful that we don’t have kids!!
These blog posts mainly describe the waves of grief. In between there’s also lots of joy and laughter and fun times. I just don’t tend to write then – maybe I should so you get the full picture. As it says in Ecclesiastes, “there’s a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance” – I can often do all of them on the same day.
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7 Comments
Deb · September 9, 2018 at 8:48 pm
Dear Helen,
I am so proud of you. Getting this out and on paper heals the wound. It really does. I sympathize and walk with you in this journey.
Deb
Helen · October 28, 2018 at 4:43 pm
Thank you and yes it does. I hope it helps other people too.
Helen · January 12, 2019 at 1:51 pm
Thanks Deb for all your support.
Alyzn Johnson · October 26, 2018 at 6:07 pm
Sending love, sending hugs blessings and prayers. I won’t pretend to know why you have been chosen to follow this journey but I am sure you are surrounded by love. X
Helen · October 28, 2018 at 4:43 pm
I don’t know why either Alyzn, but I do trust God in it all!
Kristie · February 4, 2022 at 10:00 am
I have been where you are. After 7 years of infertilty, my husband and I adopted 3 beautiful children from Russia. What an adventure and testimony that has been! I set my dream of having a baby of my own aside. When I was 40, I had a prophecy at church that I was entirely healed (no mention of a baby) but that set my heart to dreaming again. At the age of 45, I read the book “Chase the Lion” by Mark Batterson. The Holy Spirit told me to put a crib in my room as a step of faith. I felt like a lunatic, but I did it. I also received a prophecy from a visiting preacher “You think your dream is impossible but what you have in your heart, you will hold in your hands.” Last year during service, my pastor told everyone wanting a child to raise their hand. I argued with God for about 30 seconds then raised my hand (how embarrassing, I am OLD). God has honored me by continuing to encourage my heart for a child. I am now 47 and even more convinced I will get pregnant. I have NEVER been pregnant in 27 years of marriage. Thank you for sharing your journey. It is raw and will help many others. Have faith that what is in your heart, you will hold in your hands to the glory of God. I am believing with you. There is also a wonderful book by Nerida Walker “It is Finished” you might want to check it out. Many Blessings.
Helen · June 19, 2022 at 9:10 pm
Hi Kristie, wow what a great story and thank you for sharing some of it with me. I pray you too will become pregnant – we both know God can do incredible miracles!