Hopeful Beginnings

Full of faith and excited that we could soon be starting a family I googled different apps that would help us know when my most fertile days were and tracked them conscientiously! It was exciting. We were full of hope. This could be our last Christmas without kids. I was Read more…

Meet in the Middle

In marriage there are always times of compromise or meeting in the middle but we gave that a different meaning today! We were stuck in different cities during the fertile time of the month, so what do you do? Our answer – meet in the middle! It might seem extravagant Read more…

Father’s Day Pain

Why do some churches insist on doing this? We were visiting my in-laws for Father’s Day and visited a local church. All the Dads were asked to stand. Not, men but Dads. They were honoured and praised, singled out for being Dads. Don’t get me wrong, I think Dads (and Read more…

What Lies Ahead?

I registered with a family doctor today and was so impressed with and moved by her empathy. After the obligatory “how much alcohol do you drink per week?” I joked that it depended on the time of the month! She was so understanding as we discussed how hard the waiting Read more…

Peeing On A Stick

I’ve been tracking my ovulation cycle with those sticks that you pee on. Does the line appear this time? If so we need to have sex, right now!! I think the line shows that you are likely to ovulate within the next 24-48 hours but you get the picture! Morning Read more…

What Are We Getting Into?

Although we haven’t technically been trying for a full year, we’ve been referred to the fertility clinic in town. Questions about our eating, drinking and smoking habits, medical histories, physical examinations, blood work and then booked in for various other tests and ultrasounds. We were given all the stats as Read more…

Helen, I’m Pregnant

We’ve all been there. That moment that you look on Facebook and see a cheesy announcement that someone is pregnant. Or someone drops it casually into the conversation. You want to be happy for them, of course you do, but it also hurts. Am I so selfish and callous that Read more…

More Tests

Before we started on this infertility journey my medical file was basically empty. Now I’m starting to get very used to all the different types of ultrasound out there. Sometimes you need to pee first, for others you need a full bladder (they’re the worst!), some are more intimate than Read more…

When Trust Fails

When my period came this month I broke down. I wept. I couldn’t pray. I didn’t trust my words. I confessed to my mentor that although I thought I was trusting God, maybe I wasn’t. She asked me to challenge that sentence. Does my doubt and disappointment mean I don’t Read more…