Infertility
Can I Still Trust God?
Have you ever felt betrayed by God? Let down by him? Felt like he has forgotten you or is ignoring you? I’ve been there. Can we trust God? Is God trustworthy? How do we heal from betrayal? This is my story.
Have you ever felt betrayed by God? Let down by him? Felt like he has forgotten you or is ignoring you? I’ve been there. Can we trust God? Is God trustworthy? How do we heal from betrayal? This is my story.
I had all but given up hope for my squash seedlings, so imagine my surprise when they kept sprouting everywhere! I was left with more than my garden could contain. What a reminder to me, that God can take our dried up, dead and discarded dreams, and breathe life into them.
When I started this journey, I actually started with a focus on fruit. Fruit for me represented many things, but especially my desire to see fruit of my womb.
Now that has changed.
A faithful friend said to me that she felt God was asking me to bury my desire for children. Did burying my dreams mean planting them, nurturing them and seeing fruit, or did it mean burying and mourning them?
Proverbs 13:12 says that hope deferred makes the heart sick. So should we stop hoping? How should we react when our hopes are deferred, or when we face disappointment time and time again? Here are my reflections.
I was searching for a completely different passage entirely, but when I read this psalm I knew this what was I needed to hear. Sometimes God works like that. Here are my reflections on Psalm 145. As you take time to read the words of the psalm, I hope that Read more…
Sometimes I feel like I am just surviving this journey of infertility, whereas other days I feel like I am thriving despite it. That pendulum swing probably won’t change soon what with hormones, monthly cycles and other factors, but I wanted to reflect today on what helps me thrive. If Read more…
Why do I believe I’ll be a Mum? Faith is a strange thing. It’s not rational. You can strongly believe and doubt at the same time. Or at least I can! So when I say I have faith that we will have children, that doesn’t mean I’m not plagued by Read more…
How do you wait well for something, especially if you are as impatient as I am? I spent a day praying and reflecting on precisely this topic. It’s hard to wait well when you want something so much. I spent most of the time asking “What should I do?” to Read more…
In response to my post last month, I was encouraged to write some ideas as to what would be helpful to say to us childless couples. It has also encouraged me to write some tips for those of us who are reluctantly childless, so watch this space for a future Read more…