Hope Deferred

Hope Deferred

Proverbs 13:12 says that hope deferred makes the heart sick. So should we stop hoping? How should we react when our hopes are deferred, or when we face disappointment time and time again? Here are my reflections.

Birthday Milestones

Turning 40 I have not been looking forward to my birthday this year. If I’m honest it’s been a shadow hanging over me for the past few years as I’ve got ever closer to the big 4-0. It doesn’t matter how many times I have told myself, or others have Read more…

Crushed Hope

Something deep within me believed that this would be the month. I can’t explain why, but it just felt like that. Then, when I was driving, I saw the most beautiful complete rainbow over the valley. It felt like God was confirming my feeling, reminding me of the promise of Read more…

Trust & Hope

Why do I believe I’ll be a Mum? Faith is a strange thing. It’s not rational. You can strongly believe and doubt at the same time. Or at least I can! So when I say I have faith that we will have children, that doesn’t mean I’m not plagued by Read more…

Joy in Trials?

Listening to God Do you ever wonder if God actually speaks to us? (If you don’t believe in God then I guess I know your answer, but can I ask you to come with me on this one, just for a little while?) I prayed A LOT when we knew Read more…

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Scared to Hope

I didn’t want to be here. But I am, we are. Our second, and final, round of IVF. If it doesn’t work this time then we’ve already made the decision not to do it again; it’s too costly. The financial cost is easy to calculate and I am grateful we Read more…

Hopeful Beginnings

Full of faith and excited that we could soon be starting a family I googled different apps that would help us know when my most fertile days were and tracked them conscientiously! It was exciting. We were full of hope. This could be our last Christmas without kids. I was Read more…