Crushed Hope

Something deep within me believed that this would be the month. I can’t explain why, but it just felt like that. Then, when I was driving, I saw the most beautiful complete rainbow over the valley. It felt like God was confirming my feeling, reminding me of the promise of Read more…

Trust & Hope

Why do I believe I’ll be a Mum? Faith is a strange thing. It’s not rational. You can strongly believe and doubt at the same time. Or at least I can! So when I say I have faith that we will have children, that doesn’t mean I’m not plagued by Read more…

Joy in Trials?

Listening to God Do you ever wonder if God actually speaks to us? (If you don’t believe in God then I guess I know your answer, but can I ask you to come with me on this one, just for a little while?) I prayed A LOT when we knew Read more…

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Scared to Hope

I didn’t want to be here. But I am, we are. Our second, and final, round of IVF. If it doesn’t work this time then we’ve already made the decision not to do it again; it’s too costly. The financial cost is easy to calculate and I am grateful we Read more…

Hopeful Beginnings

Full of faith and excited that we could soon be starting a family I googled different apps that would help us know when my most fertile days were and tracked them conscientiously! It was exciting. We were full of hope. This could be our last Christmas without kids. I was Read more…

Meet in the Middle

In marriage there are always times of compromise or meeting in the middle but we gave that a different meaning today! We were stuck in different cities during the fertile time of the month, so what do you do? Our answer – meet in the middle! It might seem extravagant Read more…