Photo by Ben White on Unsplash

Scared to Hope

I didn’t want to be here. But I am, we are. Our second, and final, round of IVF. If it doesn’t work this time then we’ve already made the decision not to do it again; it’s too costly. The financial cost is easy to calculate and I am grateful we Read more…

Waves Of Grief

This was a hard week. It’s been a week I have been dreading for months. A week which I kept hoping and praying wouldn’t happen. A week where I learned that grief really does come in waves! This is the week that our IVF babies would have been due. It’s Read more…

More Tests

Before we started on this infertility journey my medical file was basically empty. Now I’m starting to get very used to all the different types of ultrasound out there. Sometimes you need to pee first, for others you need a full bladder (they’re the worst!), some are more intimate than Read more…

Next Step – IVF

Our fertility doctor is amazing. All the staff at the clinic are. Today I had a scheduled appointment to figure out our best next steps. The good news – we’ve come to the top of the waiting list for IVF. Different people have different views on IVF. We’d prayed about Read more…

Regret Or Embrace?

My boss asked me if I would go to Peru for a work trip. I love travelling, I’ve never been there and I would get to see the impact of our work in practice. Normally I would jump at this chance. But on the other hand there’s Zika. We’ve just Read more…