Infertility
Can I Still Trust God?
Have you ever felt betrayed by God? Let down by him? Felt like he has forgotten you or is ignoring you? I’ve been there. Can we trust God? Is God trustworthy? How do we heal from betrayal? This is my story.
Infertility
When We’ve Given Up Hope
I had all but given up hope for my squash seedlings, so imagine my surprise when they kept sprouting everywhere! I was left with more than my garden could contain. What a reminder to me, that God can take our dried up, dead and discarded dreams, and breathe life into them.
Infertility
Burying My Dreams
A faithful friend said to me that she felt God was asking me to bury my desire for children. Did burying my dreams mean planting them, nurturing them and seeing fruit, or did it mean burying and mourning them?
Surrender Control
Being In Control I like being in control! I feel in control of most areas of my life, but there are some things we have zero control over: the weather, what other people think of us, and has been increasingly evident, whether I get pregnant or not! We also can’t Read more…
Faith
Hope Deferred
Proverbs 13:12 says that hope deferred makes the heart sick. So should we stop hoping? How should we react when our hopes are deferred, or when we face disappointment time and time again? Here are my reflections.
Anniversaries
Remembering Anniversaries have always been hard for me, maybe because I have a thing for dates so I find it easy to remember what I was doing this time last year, even without Facebook to remind me! When it comes to my fertility journey though, the anniversaries always seem to Read more…
Birthday Milestones
Turning 40 I have not been looking forward to my birthday this year. If I’m honest it’s been a shadow hanging over me for the past few years as I’ve got ever closer to the big 4-0. It doesn’t matter how many times I have told myself, or others have Read more…
Faith
My Mouth Will Speak In Praise
I was searching for a completely different passage entirely, but when I read this psalm I knew this what was I needed to hear. Sometimes God works like that. Here are my reflections on Psalm 145. As you take time to read the words of the psalm, I hope that Read more…
Infertility
Survive or Thrive through Infertility
Sometimes I feel like I am just surviving this journey of infertility, whereas other days I feel like I am thriving despite it. That pendulum swing probably won’t change soon what with hormones, monthly cycles and other factors, but I wanted to reflect today on what helps me thrive. If Read more…
Crushed Hope
Something deep within me believed that this would be the month. I can’t explain why, but it just felt like that. Then, when I was driving, I saw the most beautiful complete rainbow over the valley. It felt like God was confirming my feeling, reminding me of the promise of Read more…